I'm 20 weeks and reality is starting to set in.

We don't have much to really update on but I know some people like updates and I'm one of the worse people to do updates on how we're doing. I'm officially 20 weeks today which means I'm half way. I think this week reality has really begun to set in for us. We're not really sure how everything is going to fall into place. I'm not sure if I'll be able to stop working but then I think about it and say to myself, how could I not work? Who's going to take care of these two little babies?....Cuz I sure don't want some stranger watching my children. Now, not to say daycare is a bad thing because I don't think it is but I also feel if it's possible to stay home with my kids then I should. I think about how good of a Mom I had growing up. Always cooking for us, always keeping the house clean and I want to be like that. I want my kids to think that way about me someday. I think this is the first time Joaquin and I have really had to start thinking about money and it's some of our first really "financial arguments". I don't like it. I think we're both just stressed out about it. I know that we just need to really rely on Heavenly Father and he'll bless us. Like Becky is always telling me, to have children is a righteous desier and we will be blessed. I know we will but sometimes I forget and just need a reminder every now and again. Anyway, I'm still feeling good. We still haven't decided on names for the boys but I probably won't let anyone know even if we did now. ;) Alright, that's all for now....kind of a boring couple weeks. We get to go to Veronica's wedding this week in Lake Tahoe and we're really looking forward to that!!!