the story

So here's the story:

Joaquin and I have always knew we would one day move outside of Utah. We both are from all over and we both felt like we would most likely end up in Idaho one day. Well Joaquin has worked for Verizon Wireless for about 5 years now and he is always looking for other jobs with in Verizon. Nothing has ever come up that either of us feel really good about or he doesn't have enough experience to apply. Well one day about 2 months ago we were driving down from Heber, where our really good friends live. We had such a good time and realized that Utah is such a wonderful, diverse, beautiful place. (Now, make no mistake, when I say diverse, I mean the land.) I have made really good friends here, my sister lives in Sandy and helps me more than anyone with the boys and probably loves them the same amount as I do. I think if she had her own kids, she'd feel the same kind of love. I really do. Joaquin loves Utah for all the things he can do outdoors. He also has really likes his job here. So I was feeling good, feeling secure, feeling set. "We'll probably live our whole lives here." I thought to myself. Let me just tell you, I'm not the one in charge.

About a week later, maybe less, Joaquin is looking online at job postings again and he finds this Consultant job with Verizon but for an outsource call center for the company. There were 2 positions posted, one for Salt Lake and one for Boise. (Really?!) So he talks to me about it and asks me if he should apply and I told him I thought he should apply for both. Now as a side note, after we had just had this talk about being happy in Utah, I was set on staying and now not comfortable with moving. He applied and interviewed for both, first the Salt Lake one. He felt like he did pretty well on his interview but wasn't really sure if he got it. He tells me we should really start thinking about if he were to get the job in Boise. All of the sudden I just know he's going to get this job in Boise. (Before he even interviews for it.) My feelings keep going back and forth to, if he gets the job it would be okay to move and then other times I would feel like, if he gets offered the job, I don't want to move. Ugh... my emotions are so conflicting from day to day. It's so annoying. Well, to make a long story even longer, he finds out he doesn't get the job in Salt Lake so he then interviews over the phone for the Boise job. He said the interview was very short and very direct. He felt like the person interviewing him wasn't too friendly and he probably didn't make a very good impression. So now he's second guessing himself and thinking of all the things he should have said or shouldn't have said. He gets so worked up about it that he convinces himself he didn't get the job and he is perfectly happy in his job right now. Since Joaquin is feeling this way, I'm thinking well, if he thinks he didn't do very well then he probably didn't get it and I don't really need to think anymore about it.

A week and a half go by and he hasn't heard anything until this past Friday. He gets a phone call at work where they offer him the job. They ask him to go home and think about it over the weekend and to have an answer Monday. Well we talked and I prayed about it all weekend, already knowing we were going to accept the offer but just praying that I would be okay. Change is a hard thing to do. I think that is one reason this is all happening. The Big Man in charge knows how comfortable we are and that if we were to stay here, there would be no spiritual growth. We would be stuck and that is not what this life is about. We're here to grow and have experiences and trust in our Faith. Trust in ourselves and the decisions we make.

So that is that. We have decided to start a new adventure in our lives. We will soon be Idahoans. I still go back and forth about it, even now writing this, my emotions are still mixed but I have to believe and so I will.